I am working this weekend, as the other employees enjoy their weekend off. However, I have Monday, Tuesday and Wednesday off which I need desperately.
It was offical to me today that I am worn out. I am irritable (highly abnormal for me.) I have been eating poorly, entertaining guests for a month now, and staying up all hours of the night. Even if I am at my apartment, the point is that I'm not resting. I have just felt dizzy, headachey, low-energy and overal not well. I know it's a mixture of 'life just happening' as well as my own doing. . .
Aside from physical exhaustion, it occured to me today that I have been disconnected from the center of myself, and from the source. Almost as if I've been doing and going and running to the point that I don't know where I am. Does that even make sense? I think they call it being emotionally/spirituall drained.
Geez, I hope I don't have a Mariah Carey episode. (You know a few years back when she had her "Breakdown" after that horrible movie 'Glitter'. . .)
I am no superstar diva who shatters glass and makes bad movies, but
I am just saying.
So, here are a few things I am going to do/not do these next 3-4 days.
-I won't be using my phone unless it is an emergency. (Do not suppose that you needing me to pick out a dress for you at the mall is such an emergency.)
-I will not be online. (This includes Facebook, Myspace and G-mail.) This will be difficult, since it has almost become as routine as brushing my teeth. A lot more fun too.
-I will detox my body. . . should be interesting. Therefore my diet will consist of very simple/ no junky foods and lots of water.
-I will be outside. A lot. I need the sun.
-I will be reading and writing and falling into those beauties, unaware that there is a world outside of literature and poetry.
-I will listen to new music on my ipod and drift away.
-When I'm not melodic, I'll be finding the quiet inside my mind. (Quiet, where are you?)
Other random things may include donating some clothes to goodwill and planning for my New York trip. Other than that. . .
-I love you all, but I will do my best not to be thinking of you.
(Don't take it personal.)
I need to focus on God and in Him, I will inevidably find the center of me.
See everyone on the flip. . .
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Sounds a lot like something I just went through. Reminds me of a song that is still playing in my head by DC Talk - what if i stumble what if i fall will you be their through it all. Hang in there. I heard someone say just the other day the key to life is moderation not to much, not to little. My money is with you. Find your foundation His Love in your life. Remember, Foot Prints In The Sand. He is there through it all.
When you feel you to it I could use your testomony. I invite you to visit www.PowerUpLove.com a community of real people sharing real stories about how Love has really impacted and changed their lives. Be blessed, be very blessed...
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