9 days off: strength and brokenness

So, it recently came to my attention that since I haven't been sick that much this past year and I haven't taken vacation time off, I currently have about 2 weeks worth of paid time off to take before December 31st. Ok.

That being said, starting today I will be off for 9 days, and get paid for it.
Fantastic.

I plan to relax, but also start practicing some discipline in my life. I want to replace some bad habits with good ones. I want to be on a schedule and see if I can stick to it. I'm so "whatever" with most things and I usually just go with the flow or depend on how I feel to decide if I'm going to do something or not. This includes good things like working out and praying. Now, I'm not into forcing things, but when it really comes down to it, I desire to do those things, it's just that my mind has been trained for so long to do what it wants or feels instead of doing what I need and know is true.
This has been an internal battle for me as long as I can remember.

My friend Gayle and I share this battle. We are terribly inconsistent. Or rather, we decided that we are consistent about some negative habits, but very inconsistent with good ones. I'm trying to turn that around, but I realize I need God to help me do that.
I also realized lately that I need to learn when to hold em and learn when to fold em--(in the words of the beloved Kenny Rogers), meaning that perhaps it is true that I've been strong towards things that are good for me, but weak to the things that are destructive to my soul.
It's good to stand firm and there is a time for strength, but I believe that strength was meant for us to stand against temptation and evil.
But there is also a time to be broken, vulnerable and flexible, which we need to be towards God so that he can heal us, use us and mold us.

At least I know the strength I am capable of, but I just need to be more aware of the designation to which I direct it.

So, this week I am going to eat well even when I want to eat fried snickers bars or something.
I am going to go the gym everyday.
I am going to read a story book all the way through without skipping ahead. (it's a horrible trait I have.)

I am going to make time to pray and listen everyday with no music on.
I am going to go to bed by a decent time and try not to sleep in until the afternoon.

And a few other necessary/good things.

We'll see how it goes.

May the force be with me.